Agita...no suprise there.

I knew that it would happen, it is bound to happen…the mounting to-do list and the corresponding stress level. The BF has been tackling things like a champ, serious he has done more of his list and was right there next to me on the sofa working on escort cards last night. So I know how lucky I am, it is just there are so many things more to do . I have the list right next to me so if something pops up I try and write it down. I tend to forget what I was suppose to write down at a moment's notice. (I am kinda worried about that). I am also kind of slacking because I am so tired of doing things for the wedding. But I am ramped up!

There are a few things that are causing more stress than others. Namely transportation issues, my dad offered to deal with it, then passed it back to me (who freaked out) so he took it back and now it is in a state of flux.

There are other emotions….I am sad/disappointed that some friends won't be able to make it. We suspected as much due to the tanking economy but we did not think it would be as bad as it is. Some of our friends are coming without their spouses. While we are so glad that many of the people we wanted and love are going to be there, we can't help but feeling bummed when certain people send their regrets.

There is anger…why anger, well due to my soon to be asshole of a brother in law (not one of the BF's brothers but the man who married his sister). A few weeks ago he cornered the BF at a family BBQ and asked if we would have a cake at the wedding for his daughter's birthday. Her birthday is the next day but since all the family would be there, he thought it would be nice to call her up, have everyoen sing her happy birthday and present her a cake. When I heard about it, I put my foot down.

This was my only Bridezilla moment, because I am sorry, under no circumstances will I be forced to do this at the reception. The BF's dad was appalled at the suggestion, as was the BF's sister. His dad said it was because her father is not participating in the day, he saw this as "his moment" as the father of the birthday girl. He wants any sort of spotlight, we have him written into our DJ contract so that he does not get the mic!

After seeing red and calming down, we decided to have a cake for her at the rehearsal dinner. That way, we control the situation and cut him at the pass. Oh and to steal his thunder, we are presenting another cake after the birthday cake, to celebrate the BF's brother's anniversary since it does fall on the day of the rehearsal.

But there is happiness…we are a few weeks out before it is official. Happiness to head away for a few weeks.

I know it will all get done and what will be will be. But in the meantime….ACK!

Last few weekends....

It was a lovely weekend, truly the calm before the storm.

Friday was our busiest day with us helping the BF's brother and fiancée move something to their storage unit. After a great lunch, I headed to get ready for a fitting. While I was in my gown, the BF got ready for our BBQ. We had a few people over and it turned into a great night. The BF manned the grill with the guys and the ladies and I chatted. Everyone had a great time especially the dog who was adored, petted and played with. She is still recovering from all the excitement.

The rest of the weekend was full of errands and crossing things off of our "to-do" list. We are trying to get to get as much as we can done before the big day. We have done a lot but there is always more things popping on the list.

I know as the date gets closer we will be more stressed out and frazzled but we are trying to stay on top of things. Plus, we are getting excited about leaving it all behind as we head to the honeymoon. Because nothing says relax like Paris and Barcelona.

Just a matter of weeks

As of midnight, we are exactly one month away from the wedding day. Our to-do list for this week is quite large but we have been crossing things off daily and today we will get to cross off four more items (hopefully).

Yet, as things slowly fall into place, my stress level has gone up. I have to remind myself to eat because I am not stress eater but rather the opposite. In fact, I made it a point to tell a few of my bridesmaids to ensure that I eat on the day of the wedding. August is hot and I do not want to be a fainting bride.

I am very aware of all the possible scenarios and that on that day what ever will be will be. I am not freaking out about the things that I can't control like the weather. I find certain tasks calming and trying not to get worked up. That being said there are plenty of things that get me worked up (i.e. my parents and there last minute "suggestions"). I am trying to balance the last appointments with the finances, trying to balance the ying and the yang.

But regardless, the most important thing is that in one month, I will marry my best friend. I will be his wife, he will be my husband. I will walk down that aisle with my father, listening to the music we picked, looking at the guests who we invited and I will walk to the man I love.

That my friends, is priceless.

Amongst wine

This weekend was one that won't soon be forgotten. The BF headed to Las Vegas and my best friend headed into town to keep me company. Little did I know that she and the bridesmaids were planning a surprise. They had a shower at a local wine shop where we had a tasting and some great cheeses. While I had my suspicions about the shower (or something) I had no idea that my mom would be there. She flew in on Saturday and surprised me. I was so shocked and was so happy to see her there.

Everyone got along so well and many were able to put names to faces and make new introductions. I suspect that there were many facebook exchanges over the past few days!

Afterwards a few of us headed out for tapas and the sangria and tapas were flowing. Everyone had a really great time.

Yesterday, I dropped my mom and my friend at the airport and came home. It was strange to have an empty place after a few days of having it full. But it was only a few hours later that the BF came home with his stories from his trip. We caught each other up and talked until we fell asleep. I woke up in his arms and knew that we were home.

Four weeks to go!

Round n round!

Life, such is the merry go round. I am so tired so bullets will have to do:

-The BF's brother is hoping to be released today, all the tests came back negative and he is now on a series of drugs for up to 6 months to help. He was to be released yesterday but they had calabrate the meds. He has been in good and sarcastic spirits and his fiancé deserves an award for all the things she has done for him and the family. We've visited him every day and we know that it was much appreciated.

-My condo is a disaster area (see above). It would not matter but the BF is heading out of town this weekend and my friend is staying with me for a few days. Tonight and tomorrow are "operation clean".

-We got our sideboard, looks great. Now we have extra furniture that we have to get rid off/sell/give away. I don't want to toss them.

-Our hotel in Paris canceled our reservations because they are renovating the hotel. so they re-booked us at this crappy place and I am not happy about it. So now the craziness begins. And caused some emotional eating for lunch yesterday.

The fun never stops but, all in all we are glad that the BF's bro is doing better and that is all that really matters!

Lemonaide...and lemons

The past few days have been a hazy reminder of how good things can be stopped short by an unexpected dose of reality.

Things have been going really well on the wedding planning front. We asked the BF's niece to be a junior bridesmaid (I told her mom the whole story which involved my soon to be ex sister in law backing out of the wedding) and she is very excited. Her first question was what she was to do with her hair. We are going to pair her up with her favorite uncle so that sweetened the deal! We are so happy she will participate. The BF also picked up his groomsman gifts and started to get ready for his trip this coming weekend.

On Saturday, I was getting ready for a facial when I got a text from the BF, it was a text to call him immediately after the facial. Of course, that is never a good thing so I called and it turned out his brother was in the hospital. So after an hour of pampering I headed to the hospital. His brother was in his room and was not looking that good but the prognosis was better and they are working on getting him back on his feet. So most of Saturday and yesterday we were in the hospital hanging out with him, his finance and his dad. We know he will be ok since yesterday he was sarcastic, surly and funny, so he is back. Plus his color has returned. Today they are planning another test to rule out a few more things and he should be home tomorrow.

So we did not get part of our honey do list but we spent the weekend with family and when the chips are down, we will always pull together.

Unless you are one of the future brother in law's who I seriously want to hit….more on that later.

Bits and Bobs

I am feeling lazy so here is what is going on in my world

• We are getting some responses back and it is now fun to go through the mail.
• I have been getting good nights of sleep, but have been waking up more tired than I began
• I am a bit not sure of what I need to do next for the wedding. It is starting to freak me out that it is so close.
• We need to spend a day cleaning and organizing the apartment.
• I am actually ahead of the laundry game, as of last night.
• Jet dry does make a difference in the dish washer
• I am so over the rain, seriously. OVER IT!

So what is going on in your world?