Tuesday, December 14, 2010

The only constant in change

Over the past few months I have been feeling like a situation that I have dealt with when I was a lot younger. The difference is the people and the common element is me. So I have a few choices, I can continue to let it bother me or I can change how I deal with the situation. I tend to lean towards the negative but then it festers and I get more upset and then start to close up.

I want to lean towards letting it go, letting the thing that is bothering me go. It is so much easier to write than than to actually hit on the tried and true solution of releasing the feelings. It is something that I am trying to figure out not just with this particular situation but with a few other situations as well. It is something that each person has to deal with it their own way.

Usually it heads towards blaming and doubting myself and I beat myself up. Sometimes it turns into a full out pity party.

I want it change the cycle. I want to let some things go or better yet accept things for what they are and (a big and) be ok with it.

Maybe I have my 2011 resolution.


Karen said...

I see patterns in my life come back time and again. You would think I would learn to avoid the bad stuff, but it comes back around.

kilax said...

I've never been good at letting things go. I held a grudge against my aunt for a very long time. It's a long long story.

I hope the situation you are in gets better!