It has been no secret that I have been second guessing everything about the wedding from my dress to the flowers, to the venue to the food to the photographer to the date and beyond. I think it is because it is so unknown to me what it is like to be a bride. I've been to plenty of weddings but orchestrating one is a completely different. My friend told me the other day (I a moment of irrational crisis on my part) that she loved getting married but hated being the bride. I can see that point.
I am not one to jump into the spotlight and I can be very indecisive and I tend to second guess a lot of my decisions as they happen. Part of it also has to deal with the crap that we had to deal with from our families. Every decision was a battle with someone and after a while, it made us question certain things.
But that comes with the territory and I have accepted that onions, comments and suggestions that are both welcomed and unwelcomed. We have about 80 days left and I have to make the decision to trust myself or question every little thing….I am planning on trusting myself.