Wednesday, September 30, 2009

New fall activities

So there have been a few things that have been happening since the weather changed

-I took a candy making class with CBN and Diana, we made truffles, turtles, toffee and peppermint bark. I have not made candy before so it was a lot of fun and I have some great holiday gifts ideas not too mention tons of candy at home.

-Since getting married, I have acquired 5 nieces and 1 nephew and during the fall come the "our kids are raising money for their school" emails. So the Hubs and I set a cash limit and will be purchasing something from each set of kids.

-The fall catalogs have started to come in making me lust for clothes and shoes. I looked at them, drooled and tossed them in the recycle bin. No new things this year.

-The days are getting shorter and that means I leave and come home at dawn and dusk. Getting up in the morning is harder without the sun.

-We've decided to try one new recipe a week for the next few weeks (to start off with). So far this week I made quiche Lorraine (amazing) and the Hubs made chocolate Carmel donut holes. tonight I am making saffron and potato garlic soup!

-I am in a weird state of mind and I am trying to sort things out. In a way, I feel very alone and isolated, like I don't belong in certain situations and I am sort of giving up in trying to belong (there is no use in forcing my way in parts where it is starting to become obvious that I am not a part of). It is something that I am trying to figure out and it frankly sucks. I can't really talk about because it is so complex and people will think it is stupid and I have been extremely hard on myself. I want to be out of this hole but can't see the light just yet and I have to be careful not to be sucked into my own self pity party. Not going so well....

This has nothing to do with my marriage!!! He has been such a support during this time, he has watched me become more negative and self deprecating and tries to pull me up but, it is me who has to realize a few things rather than take things at face value. But it has been hard.

I am trying, I am trying...

7 comments:

pseudostoops said...

Candy-making sounds AWESOME! Where did you do that?

And hang in there- we've all been in that place, where we're our worst critic.

SoMi's Nilsa said...

There seems to be a big lull after weddings. When you've spent the better part of the past year so wrapped up in planning and all of a sudden have nothing to plan. Lots of free time. It definitely took me a number of months to find myself again. Just remind yourself this is an opportunity to do something new or to take a different perspective on life. You know, the silver lining of the situation.

Christina said...

P-We took it at the Wooden Spoon on Clark. It is well worth it!

N-Thanks for the words of encouragemet. I have been suspecting it is post wedding lull.

kilax said...

The one new recipe a week idea sounds like so much fun!

I often feel like I don't belong with people, because I can't relate to them. Hang in there, you'll find the place you want to be!

Non Sequitur Chica said...

I'm sorry that you are not feeling yourself these days, but it's great that your husband is so supportive. Maybe find a new activity?

Jessica said...

Let me know how that soup turns out. It's sounds great!

Christina said...

Jessica-I made the soup last night and it was great!