-I took a candy making class with CBN and Diana, we made truffles, turtles, toffee and peppermint bark. I have not made candy before so it was a lot of fun and I have some great holiday gifts ideas not too mention tons of candy at home.
-Since getting married, I have acquired 5 nieces and 1 nephew and during the fall come the "our kids are raising money for their school" emails. So the Hubs and I set a cash limit and will be purchasing something from each set of kids.
-The fall catalogs have started to come in making me lust for clothes and shoes. I looked at them, drooled and tossed them in the recycle bin. No new things this year.
-The days are getting shorter and that means I leave and come home at dawn and dusk. Getting up in the morning is harder without the sun.
-We've decided to try one new recipe a week for the next few weeks (to start off with). So far this week I made quiche Lorraine (amazing) and the Hubs made chocolate Carmel donut holes. tonight I am making saffron and potato garlic soup!
-I am in a weird state of mind and I am trying to sort things out. In a way, I feel very alone and isolated, like I don't belong in certain situations and I am sort of giving up in trying to belong (there is no use in forcing my way in parts where it is starting to become obvious that I am not a part of). It is something that I am trying to figure out and it frankly sucks. I can't really talk about because it is so complex and people will think it is stupid and I have been extremely hard on myself. I want to be out of this hole but can't see the light just yet and I have to be careful not to be sucked into my own self pity party. Not going so well....
This has nothing to do with my marriage!!! He has been such a support during this time, he has watched me become more negative and self deprecating and tries to pull me up but, it is me who has to realize a few things rather than take things at face value. But it has been hard.
I am trying, I am trying...