Abs (and nerves) not quite as steel

Well I met wit my trainer yesterday and it went well.  She is really realistic and took it easy on me.  I learned a lot of great things that I can do to tone up my entire body.  I think that I can maintain the interest if I supplement seeing her and going to the gym once a week for an hour continue working out.

I am VERY sore on my abs today.  I was expecting to be sore more so  in my upper back and arms but that was not the case.  She encouraged me to stretch before I went to bed and I think that is what did the trick.  I feel like I have been punched.  The bf was teasing me that he punched me in my sleep for allegedly stealing the blankets last night. Which I deny *ever* doing.

But it is a step in the right direction for me.  I have to get my lazy ass of the couch.  And as Jessica said in the comment section in my previous post I need to use my ass for good not evil :).

Besides working out, I am really anxious about this coming week.  After I completed the MBA, I have been in talks with some high up managers about my future.  They were very open to ideas and suggestions and were going to work on what I want to do and  match it up with what they want.  They really wanted me to want a manager position but it was not what I wanted to do.  I did not want to settle for that because I would be doing the same thing only having to deal with my peers as my subordinates and that is not what I wanted to do.  So this week is the week when they come back with their ideas.  I may be in the east for some meetings to further discuss them.

I am very nervous because I know what I think that I want to try and this corporation has plenty of possibilities but at the same time I am not sure what I want and if I want to work for a huge corporation.  I asked my former manager for some advise and she told me that with my new degree I can open any door I want and if I do not get what works best for me that I should be prepared to walk.

It is great advise but I am scared shitless to walk because I have no idea where to go and what to do.  

Deep down I have two ideas to start my own business and it maybe something to consider but I am so freaked out about it.  I know that failure can be a learning experience and I may succeed but, I am so tough on myself.

I need certain levels of stability in my life I am not one to live by the seat of my pants especially as I am getting older and have more responsibilities.  I need a steady pay check, I NEED health insurance, I need some sort of status quo. But on the other hand, starting something that I want to do and doing it my way, is encouraging and exciting.

I guess I have to see what this week will bring and maybe it will be up my alley or I may have to think about walking.  Just need to figure out how to do that...