Sunday, January 06, 2008

Abs (and nerves) not quite as steel

Well I met wit my trainer yesterday and it went well.  She is really realistic and took it easy on me.  I learned a lot of great things that I can do to tone up my entire body.  I think that I can maintain the interest if I supplement seeing her and going to the gym once a week for an hour continue working out.

I am VERY sore on my abs today.  I was expecting to be sore more so  in my upper back and arms but that was not the case.  She encouraged me to stretch before I went to bed and I think that is what did the trick.  I feel like I have been punched.  The bf was teasing me that he punched me in my sleep for allegedly stealing the blankets last night. Which I deny *ever* doing.

But it is a step in the right direction for me.  I have to get my lazy ass of the couch.  And as Jessica said in the comment section in my previous post I need to use my ass for good not evil :).

Besides working out, I am really anxious about this coming week.  After I completed the MBA, I have been in talks with some high up managers about my future.  They were very open to ideas and suggestions and were going to work on what I want to do and  match it up with what they want.  They really wanted me to want a manager position but it was not what I wanted to do.  I did not want to settle for that because I would be doing the same thing only having to deal with my peers as my subordinates and that is not what I wanted to do.  So this week is the week when they come back with their ideas.  I may be in the east for some meetings to further discuss them.

I am very nervous because I know what I think that I want to try and this corporation has plenty of possibilities but at the same time I am not sure what I want and if I want to work for a huge corporation.  I asked my former manager for some advise and she told me that with my new degree I can open any door I want and if I do not get what works best for me that I should be prepared to walk.

It is great advise but I am scared shitless to walk because I have no idea where to go and what to do.  

Deep down I have two ideas to start my own business and it maybe something to consider but I am so freaked out about it.  I know that failure can be a learning experience and I may succeed but, I am so tough on myself.

I need certain levels of stability in my life I am not one to live by the seat of my pants especially as I am getting older and have more responsibilities.  I need a steady pay check, I NEED health insurance, I need some sort of status quo. But on the other hand, starting something that I want to do and doing it my way, is encouraging and exciting.

I guess I have to see what this week will bring and maybe it will be up my alley or I may have to think about walking.  Just need to figure out how to do that...


Jessica said...

Wow, you're own business! That's exciting. What sort of business? Any idea?

Superstar said...

I know how hard a job/career change is.

The challenge is, will it make me happier in the long run. That sometimes means you have to take a few steps back, to be a mile ahead.

Good luck w/ your week!