I knew that our "to do" list would expand and contract as we get closer to the days. The BF is so on top of his game and completed so many things over the weekend. I took care of a few odds and ends and together we got a lot done.
What I did not account for was all the tears. I knew some people would not be able to make it but as the final numbers came in, I was very disappointed and sad. I know that there are obligations and financial concerns, I get that but it still does not help me because I am so upset by it. I have travel all over the world for weddings and now when it is mine, people can't. It is the battle between the rational and the emotional. Right now the emotional is winning. I am just so sad.
I appreciate all the "yes" people but it is some of the nos, that have really hurt me.
I'll get over it but like many before me, I won't forget it.